we would like to announce the name of our first child, Isabela Eva Bertling. for reasons we will never know or fully understand, we are not meeting her today, her due date, as we hoped we would. but we want to recognise her as a child we would have loved, and give her an identity that makes her a part of our family.
the name Isabela is the Italian variant of Elisabeth, which means "consecrated/pledged to God," or "promise of God." it is an Italian name, because that is where she resides in spirit and memory (see this post), and that is where she spent some of the first weeks of her short life in the womb. in addition, Elisabeth is the middle name of both her fraternal grandmother, Sabine Elisabeth Bertling, and her maternal great-grandmother, Anne Elizabeth Gieschen.
the name Eva was the English name of Yu-Ying Eva Chan, her maternal great-grandmother, who left this earth one week before Isabela Eva did. when we lost our baby, there was comfort in the image of Eva Chan already there in heaven to welcome and hold her when she arrived. Eva Chan, who is also missed, was an incredible woman of courage, faith, and fierce love. and more importantly, the name Eva is still carried by Isabela Eva's maternal grandmother, Nancy Eva Gieschen.
Isabela Eva Bertling, we hope to meet you someday. in the meantime, we will remember you, and we do consecrate you into the hands of a loving creator God. thank you for what you have given to us in your short life.